Stressed

The place I went to work for has gone out of business. Again I'm running around looking for a job. I got so frustrated because everytime I would pick up the jobs section of the news paper I would see, RN needed, LPN needed, MT needed, and all kinds of things for health care so I ran to the University and said I want to become a nurse. I enrolled and started classes 2 weeks ago, but the student loans I received wasn't enough to cover the cost of my books at all. I had to borrow it from my grandmother which I so dislike doing because she's family, but still in the meantime I'm unable to find a part time job.

I will graduate in two years as long as I study hard and keep my grades up. I shouldn't have got a degree in ART before, but I still love it. I am frustrated. I mean really? McDonalds is full? I have put up fliers saying I'll clean people's houses, run errands for them, go to the grocery store to pick up their food, anything, but nothing so far. Been to the flea markets to sell my things, first day earned $7. The second day was $13. So for 2 days work, I earned $20 which is better than nothing, but it went quickly for toothpaste, toilet paper, soap, and shampoo, and the rest went in my tank for gas.

Maybe I will sound like a baby right now, but really I just feel like crying. I feel as if everything is falling apart. My oldest daughter is a senior in high school, she needs money for spanish club, band, and her senior pictures. My youngest daughter so far only needs the necessities; thank goodness. I have to pay the rent, medical bills, car insurance, utilities, and gas to go back and forth to school. I know that eventually everything will get better, but I'm massively stressed. I get headaches, my neck stiffens as if I've pulled a muscle, I can't eat as I use to as it just comes back up, and sleep is something I miss.

Seriously?! McDonalds anad Burger King and Wendy's and Arby's and Hardee's, etc... are full??? That jus blows my mind. I would be perfectly happy with just part time. I'm in school anyway, but I can work night shifts full time. 

Instead of being in art exhibitions, maybe I should try to sell all my work on ebay. It beats waiting around for a year when my area has 1 and I sell 2 or 3 pieces that bring in around $1000 to $1500. Would be alot if I could do that every month instead of once a year. 

 Any suggestions out there? I'm open for ideas.